I really didnt expect Happy to go off so sudden and quickly.Even though i've been preparing myself ever since last july.But i dont know why,im still not prepared and i will never ever be.It was so painful to see the process of him dying.I saw him gasping for air,trying his very best to breathe.It really hurts to see him suffer so much before he passed away.Its not even a day and im already missing him.He has been with me for more than half of my life.I miss his barking,i miss his smell,i miss his cuteness,i miss his everything.I just can't believe it that he is gone.
How now?How am i gonna get used to my life now ? Nobody is gonna welcome me when im home.It just hurts so bad cause he is gone for real.I wonder if he is doing fine now,i hope he is.He must be feeling so scared now :/ Bet he is feeling really lost now. It feels like a nightmare.Seriously,how can Happy die?How could he?! I don't want anything now,i just want him back.I want him to perform tricks for me.
Im so used to him in my life now.Im so used to calling"Happy!!~" randomly when im bored.Then he would come walking towards me while i hear the sound of his nails hitting against the floor. Im gonna miss that sound...a lot :/
I really dont know what to say.Maybe its really just a nightmare.The moment im up the next day,i'll see him next to me.
yes,maybe i should get some sleep now and everything would resume to how it used to be.
goodnight.

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