Sunday, September 5, 2010
♥
When everything started,I kept telling myself to not expect anything out from you cause i know i won't get anything in return.So,I kept telling myself that "the day" would be coming soon and it always turned out to be a false alarm.And slowly,i took it for granted.Unfortunately,I gradually got used to you.Finally, when it came,i broke down and collapsed.Its just so stupid and foolish to fall into the black hole.
i swear i'm so over him,i just wanna be friends.Cause i think its such a pity for this fun friendship to just end silently like this.Well,i've tried but yeah,things didnt really work out.I'm so tired.I'm trying even harder than i used for almost everything that i do now.Its draining all my energy away.I don't even know what im typing now,i dont even think the whole chunk of words above make any sense at all.
Sometimes,i just feel like being drunk forever.so i can forget everything and just move on crazily and insanely.When im drunk,i can cry all i want,spout all sorts of nonsense,and say whatever that i want and i would be forgiven since im drunk.I could be in my own lala land.
I have no choice but to go on pretending and acting like as if im the happiest girl on Earth.
Then,up to here-
