Saturday, August 14, 2010
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okay,spent my day baking and watching some hongkong drama that Boomer rented.Gonna pass a box of cornflake to desmond tmr,hope he won't die from eating them.HAHA.
im so tired,my eyeballs are burning now but i just refuse to sleep.haha.
What should i do during the 10 weeks of holidays? if i can't get a job,i think im gonna learn a new instrument or something.I shouldn't waste my holidays idling around.
Things are slightly better now.Went out with Michelle yesterday and we are now back to normal:) im so glad :)
I don't know if im used to everything now or am i just pretending so much till i dont know even know how im feeling?Whatever it is,i dont have a choice.I just need to adapt quickly.So yeah,i might just go on pretending unknowingly.Even though im feeling like crap half the time,I can't tell anyone;Thats cause I'm the "Crazy and cheerful " Majesta,cause the people around me are too busy with their lives and their own problems that im also helping with.How can they help me when i'm helping them at the same time?My friends have their own problems,i shouldn't bother them too much.But really,I brought this upon myself.I do deserve this.
At least its the holidays now, a good time for things to blend and get into place.So please,hurry up.I can't take this any longer.
If only i kept my bloody mouth shut,this wouldn't happen.If only i could control my emotions and thoughts.If only i could go back in time,i wouldn't do it.
I really miss texting you.I totally regretted it.
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