Saturday, May 22, 2010
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I'm so tired.But everything is not done yet,so i can't sleep;my hair is still wet,i still need to brush my teeth and go switch off the lights in the living room.But i slept for 30
mins with my hair wet.
hahaha, my curls are so messy now,i look like a crazy poodle.
Its finally the weekends.This week was totally hectic.I would always panic at the end of each day cause of schoolwork.
uhhh,seriously,this is taking my life.
On
thursday,I stayed in school till 9pm doing the stupid
accs project.I re-did it for 4 freaking times and i almost died.I
dont even know why i cried but yeah,i guess i was too stressed cause i really put in lots of effort trying to finish it.but yeah,its over :D
Went to watch
shrek with
clarice today :] the movie was okay, funny,sweet and touching but i guess its a little too short?
hahaha.And
clarice caught me crying when it was the touching part,damn it.HAHA.i was sort of tearing plus a little of crying ,not really crying.
hahha okay,skip.
I called
michelle earlier and we talked for a little while.I updated her with my life and she updated me with hers.For the first 15
mins of the conversation,we were kinda quiet.It was so awkward.And she is going out with
diyanah tmr despite the fact that i asked her first.I really
dont get it.how can our friendship be compared to hers?I've known her for 13 years and best friends for 5.
goshhh,the moon is acting on me now D: Debbie,
im in it with you now.I really miss
michelle badly.I miss those days when we can spend hours on the phone crapping away,going to the airport for fun and doing other crazy stuff.I wanna retrieve those memories back.I
dont know why
im taking this so seriously but
im that kind who really treasure friendships especially long terms ones.i
dont know why she can let it go so easily without any effort.She is like spending everyday happily while
im emoing away with the moon.i hate to be so depressed and emotional.I
wasnt like this last time.I used to be cheerful and bubbly all the time.even though i may still be cheerful and all now but i would feel really tired at the end of the day.This just plainly means that
im pretending.I need to stop pretending.I think i really
dont know what to do if i
dont have the
usuals and
jolene with me.They are the only ones i have left now.okay,i should really stop crying.I've been crying really often nowadays and i detest it.
Im like always crying over everything,since when am i so weak??!!?!?!??!I need to learn to be strong.This cant go on,i would either go crazy or blind one day.And i realised that my posts are always so long cause i always have something to rant about everyday.
uhhh,i wanna be a kid again.Then i would not have troubles,even if i have,it would just be over silly issues like which toy i want or which lollipop i want.
I feel like stuffing myself with jelly beans now.I think
thats the only way that can make feel slightly better.okay,
im not normal.
I hope
tmr would be a better day .Moon,go away.Please
dont affect me and my friends.I've had enough,so stop reminding me of how
pathetic i am now.Thank you.
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